Lily-Rose Cindy lana Kyriacos

Lily-rose kyriacos
17-01-07
Born sleeping
Brighton
Daughter to chantelle king
Sister to jaydon and jypsy-roselea
A grandaughter to keith and tracey
A neice to Luke,Sam,Jake,toni and kerry


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mummy has found out shes pregnant, please look after the little bean.and protect it. love you
millions x.x.

mummy lost her little angel again and now daddy dont even talk to me, im so gutted life was not to
be like this, i so need your daddy right now.and i dont know how im coping without him cos hes the
only one who really truely knows what im going through. xxx

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born, that something stopped my heart,
I felt each tender squeeze you gave, I loved you from the start.
Although my body you can’t hold, it doesn’t mean I’m gone,
This world was worthy not of me, God chose that I move on,
I know the pain that drowns your soul, what you are forced to face,
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms, someday we will embrace.
You’ll hear that it was “meant to be, God doesn’t make mistakes”
But that won’t soften your worst blow or make your heart not ache.
I’m watching over all you do, another child you’ll bear,
Believe me when I say to you, that I am always there.
There will come a time, I promise you, when you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips and then you’ll understand.
Although I never breathed your air, or gazed into your eyes,
That doesn’t mean I never “was”…An Angel Never Die`s.

LILY-ROSE
Lily-rose my darling little angel, words couldn't express what im feeling right now.You was
born sleeping but look so perfect, with little white hand and feet which i can still picture in my
head.I was so amazed with all the black hair you had, just like yr dads, you even look like yr
dad.baby girl i just wont to say that i love you so much and one day i will be with you again, to
hold you ,to comfort you and be there as a mother.You are still our little girl, we made you, i felt
you move, i saw you on the scans.I knew when u was ganna kick me and that i would be up all night,
but that was you and i loved you for it, you was yr own little person and no one will ever will take
that away or replace you.Baby girl nanny misses you so much she has taken this so hard, she was
there first thing in the morning and has not stopped thinking about you ever since, she got you this
amazing angel to go on yr grave and you are a angel to us and as in heaven.And what can i say about
your daddy well you looked like him so much, you was his first baby,his first little girl and he
will never forget you.He wanted you so much Lily.He loved you so much.You are the most perfect
little angel.

From you mummy,
lily-rose i wont forget the day they told me you was gone, i sat there and cried and screamed for
what seem a life time, i was so scared and un-happy i didnt want my little girl to be born i wanted
you inside me where i could keep you safe, so no one could take you away from me. Hours when by or
so it seemed and then i had you in my arms, i just sat there looking at you, you was perfect. i sat
there wanting you to cry even sream. I wanted to give you mouth to mouth but i knew it would do no
good, it was to late i couldnt save you now. i layed with you for the hole night and morning, i just
didnt want to let you go and willed you to wake up so i could take you home. i prayed for a miracle
but it wasn't answered.when it was time to go i just wanted to pick you up and take you with me
just like the other mothers where doing but i couldnt all i had left was to say goodbye. i kissed yr
head and yr perfect little hands.I was going down the stairs in the hospital and all i wanted to do
was run back up them just have another kiss another cuddle another hour truth be told to take u home
where u belonged. I sat there for hours staring into thin air, i was in to much shock, i didnt no
what i was doing but i knew what i was thinking about,you!
i was on my own that night i layed there thinking i could hear you cry but it was all in my head. i
was robbed of the crying the sleepless night and dirty nappies. we take this all for granted when we
have children because we dont ever think that its ever going to happen to us.But it did me. And now
i sit here all alone wondering what you would of been like and wonder about yr wedding and yr kids
but im never going to see that happen.Baby girl you are my angel, my child!
Nothing will ever replace you and i will never ever forget you.
i will one day be with you again, to hold you,comfort you and be the mother i deserved to be.i will
oneday day babes i promise.
For now this is only a goodnight never a goodbye
love always yr
mother xxxx


15/01/07
i was having a really bad day i was getting contractions every 5 mins, so i thought i would go to
the hospital and get you check out because for the last to weeks you had wanted to come out and kept
sending me into labour, but everythime i went to the hospital they kept stopping it, even though i
had the steroid injections,so i stayed in the night,and all night i was given pills they wanted to
put a drip in but i couldnt do it mummy is so scared of injections. in the morning i had to go for a
scan, they checked your water levels around you and my water had'nt broke, so he said i could
stay in or go, i said i'll go because i had to get back for the kids. and of i went.

16/01/07
well after i got home, it had been about an hour, i was dying for the toilet, i went and as i stood
up i thought i had pissed myself cos i had a contraction, so i phoned the hospital staight, they
told me to come in but not on to labour ward which i thought was funny because i in and out of
prem-labour since the 2nd january and not once had i been to level 12. i rememver just sitting there
for and hour then another hour and then another oh and one more. i was leaking water and having
contactions but still no one had seen me or sent me up stairs, then i started shouting at the
midwifge saying i was going home and going to another hospital, as i was crying i was ringing round
on my mobile to other hospital but they said they couldnt take me but i shouldnt been in that ward
and i should be seen to staight away. the midwife manage to calm me down, and as i was about to
leave the doctor come down.she took me in a room had a look around and said my waters had gone.she
aked if she could take blood and once again i said i cant but if she really thought it was that
important i would she said no it wasn't that importanat, so i said no then.
she then turned round and said what you doing here wasting my time, why do u bother?
not only had i been waiting on my own for hours in pain and wet trousers!!!!
i now had a rude abrupt doctor underminding me.
i couldnt beleive it!!
i was crying my eyes out saying i wanted a c'sec but she said they dont just hand them out, and
the doctors dont like doing them. all i kept saying is she would be dead in the morning.
well after a while they said we normaly send people home for 24hours and if in that time yr
contractions get worse come back in.
i was aking do i need any pills to fight of any infectionds, cos i no you can get them if your
waters have broke, but no she didnt give me any think.
so i left that night not realising it was going to be the last night of my little girl kicking and
moving to michael jackson.so in my eyes the hospital could of saved my little girl?????????????


Please dont ask me if im over it yet
I ll never be over it
PLEASE don t tell me she is in a better place
She isn t here with me
PLEASE don t say , at least she isnt suffering
I don t understand why she had to suffer at all
PLEASE dont tell me you know how i feel
Unless you have lost a child
PLEASE dont ask me if i feel better
Bereavement isn t a condition that clears up
PLEASE dont tell me, at least you had her for a little while
When would you choose for your child to die
PLEASE dont tell me that god never gives us more than we can bear
PLEASE just say that you are sorry
PLEASE just say you remember my child if you do
PLEASE just let me talk about my child
PLEASE mention my childs name
PLEASE just let me cry


My little girl lily

Your little girl cries too much
My little girl makes no sound
Your little girl is warm to touch
Mine lies cold in the ground

Your little girl woke up today
My Angel never will
Your little girl can laugh and play
My little girl lies still

Your little girl makes you so proud
But just as proud as I
Cause though your girl will learn to walk
My little girl can FLY!
love you lily love mummy xxx


My grief is like a river,
I have to let it flow,
but I myself determine
just where the banks will go.

Some days the current takes me
in waves of guilt and pain,
but there are always quiet pools
where I can rest again.

I crash on rocks of anger;
my faith seems faint indeed,
but there are other swimmers
who know that what I need

Are loving hands to hold me
when the waters are too swift,
and someone kind to listen
when I just seem to drift.

Grief's river is a process
of relinquishing the past.
By swimming in hope's channels,
I'll reach the shore at last.

Who never got to be,
Or try again to see a face
You never got to see?
How do you mourn the death of one
Who never got to live,
When there's nothing to feel good about
And nothing to forgive?
I love you, little daughter.
You're a person of the wind,
Free to be the memory
Of all that might have been.
I love you, little daughter,
My companion of the night,
Wandering through my lonely hours,
Beautiful and bright.
What does it mean to die before
You ever can be born,
To live the lovely night of life
And never see the dawn?
Ah! My little daughter,
You lived like anyone!
Life's a burst of joy and pain,
And then, like yours, it's done.
I love you, little daughter,
Just as if you'd lived for years.
No more, no less, I think of you,
The angel of my tears.

MUMMYS STORY

My mum,she tells a lot of lies
She never did before.
From now until the day she dies, she'll tell a whole lot more.
She used to tell the truth a lot, but now it dosen't matter,
I died and went to heaven, her life is all a shatter.

Ask my mum how she is,
She'll say yes im fine!
She wants to beg "Please help me i cant find that princess of mine!

Ask my mum how she is, she'll say "i'm alright"
If thats the truth then tell me, why does she cry
each night?

Ask my mum how she is, she seems to cope so well
She did'nt have a choice, you see, nor the strengh to yell.
You think you no the feeling, but this cannot be,
For even though you loved me, you didn't love as
much as she.

She will smile and tell you,"it's ok god has a plan.
But she will turn away and cry, cause she just cant understand.

Tell a joke and she will laugh, but she is not ok
She wants to share the joke with me, but it will not be today.

I watch her from here in heaven,
Will someone please take care of her, and thus take care of me?
Some day you will feel better
"Yes i will" she lies.

She knows this will not happen,
Until the day she dies.

Ask my mum how she is,
She'll say, thank you good
"she cannot tell you how she feels,
Oh i wish she could.

Ask my mum how she is
Im fine, im well, im coping.
"for gods sake mum, just tell the truth, just say
your heart is broken.

Ask my mum how she is,
Im well, im good, and you?
Ill shake my head in heaven
It simply isn't true.

She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is, she'll lie and
say she's fine.

Her carnival is over,
She's stepped off the carousel,
But to save you feeling badly,
She'll say, thanks all is well.

My mum she's not gone mad yet
But oh so very nearly.
Dont ask my mum how she is,
Ask her how she is realy.

I'm here in heaven,
I can not hug from here.
If she lies to you dont listen.
Hug her, hold her near.
On the day we meet again, we'll smile and ill be bold
I'll say
"Your lucky to get in here with all the lies you
told.”

Although you think i've gone,

and you feel your hearts are breaking

You think i've left you both,

In a world you see as taking.

I know you feel so cheated

from the little time we had,

but this isnt what i want

to make you feel so sad.

Please believe in me

You dont have to let me go,

I live on in your hearts


Please believe that im still with you

and all these words are true,

You once looked after me

Now im looking after you......



Life was a gift
That you didn't receive
I loved you more
Than you'd ever believe
Talking to you
As i turn out the light " I love, you know? I miss you goodnight"
Now you are living
In a world up above
I can't see you or touch you
But I give you my love
The angel up there
Who's hand that you hold
She'll be watching you for me
Until its my hand you hold
I'll see you one day
When we meet in the sky
"This hello is forever, never again a goodbye"
The pain I remember
Of letting you go
I think of you always "I Love You, You Know"

"Death of a Child"
Sorry I didn't get to stay.
To laugh and run and play.
To be there by your side.
I'm sorry that I had to die.
God sent me down to be with you,
to make your loving heart anew.
To help you look up and see
Both God and little me.

Mommy, I wish I could stay.
Just like I heard you pray.
But, all the angels did cry
when they told little me goodbye.

God didn't take me cause He's mad.
He didn't send me to make you sad.
But to give us both a chance to be
a love so precious .. don't you see?

Up here no trouble do I see
and the pretty angels sing to me.
The streets of gold is where I play
you'll come here too, mommy, someday.

Until the day you join me here,
I'll love you mommy, dear.
Each breeze you feel and see,
brings love and a kiss from me.